SWW

So here I sit while watching my carpets get clean and what better time to invoke on my So What Wednesday!

So what that my whole house is tore up because my husband thought that EVERY SINGLE INCH of carpet needed to be clean.  Therefore the living room is in the kitchen and the bedrooms are in the bathroom.

So what that I don't have a single gift wrapped, they are all bought.

So what that I went to give blood this morning and I didn't have anything to drink or eat before going, I just barely passed the iron level of being allowed to give blood, and I lifted heavy items merely 4 hours after, which is not recommended.   

So what that I have invited my entire in law side of the family over for Christmas, and we barely have room for our own family.  I do have "stupid" written across my forehead.  But on the side note, it will be nice to have everyone so nice a cozy in one place on one of the best holidays of the year, after all Christmas is a time for family and togetherness.

So what that our bank account should be in the red but thanks to over protection accounts, it saved me.  Oh and so what that I'm still going out with the girls tonight for supper to La Cabana, I may just drink my supper instead!

So what that I spent 20 dollars on a bottle of wine last night at the restaurant   It was the best darn wine I've ever tasted!!!

So what that I have had to come back to this post because my son woke up with a fever of 101 and I've been playing doctor all afternoon long.  He seems to be doing okay energy wise but can't see to keep the fever down.  Oh the joys of winter sickness.

So what that the last entry in my blog was from two weeks ago So What Wednesday, I'm a busy lady folks.

So what that my husband bought all his own Christmas gifts this year and I get to get surprised by all mine, He is our families Santa this year (also he has a little bit of a shopping problem).

SO WHAT WEDNESDAY???

A friend of mine started this after seeing a fellow blogger start this, so I've decided I'll try to do it too!  So here it goes.....

So what that it's 3:30 and I'm just eating lunch because I'd rather get rest when my son is sleeping than eat something.  

So what the only thing I have to wear lately is T-Shirts and Sweat Shirts, there's only a few nice shirts in my closet that fit me and I refused to yet again buy clothes because ONE of these days I'm going to start a diet! 

So what that we do not have a lot of groceries to make 'meals' with, but most of our Christmas Shopping is DONE!!! 

So what that having my nephew, Drayton over makes me really stressed and not want to have another baby, I love him anyway and he is no troubles at all.  

So what I ate five pieces of Breakfast pizza this morning, I was hungry.  Plus I'll be starting a diet SOME day remember?!?! 

So what if I keep saying that "one of these days I'm going to go on a diet", maybe one of these days I actually will! lol 


Well there ya have it that's it for today, hope you enjoy!

Thankful

So, here I sit realizing that November is pretty much gone, like in three days done, over.  I can not believe how fast that month flew by.  I feel like I haven't been that busy to not notice a whole month has gone by, but it has.  I have been reading and trying to keep up with everyone that has participated in the 30 days of Thankfulness post on face book and my fellow bloggers.  While reading these there were moments that I felt different emotions.  Guilty - that I wasn't participating to let others know that I too have many things to be thankful for.  Jealous - that others seem to be so organized to post everyday for 30 days or try to at least.  Happy - to see so many of my friends be so thankful for what they have and not dwell on the things they don't.  Sad - that truly while some of us have so much to be thankful for there are many out there that are much less fortunate than us.
With that said, here is a little of what I have to be thankful for - First and for most, I'm thankful that I have found a husband that accepts me for who I am.  He takes my crap when I'm crabby, shares in my joy when I'm giddy, understands me enough and cares enough to go the extra step because he knows I care about certain things the way I do.  I'm thankful for my son Bentley.  Man  I look back and can't even think of what life would be without him.  I remember when I first got pregnant I was TERRIFIED beyond belief.  I cried so hard that I shocked Curt and made him even scared.  I worried that I wasn't ready, questioned if I even was ready, I sometimes felt selfish and didn't want to have a little human to look after.  But now Today I'm so thankful that he was brought into my life for he has brought so much into it.  He has taught me what true patience is, he tests me EVERYDAY to limits I didn't know I had, and has brought so my joy to Curt and my lives.  I am thankful for my mom and my DAD, Betty and REGAN!  Though my family is special I wouldn't want it any other way.  Both of these people are as selfless as they come.  They go out of their way to take care of me and my family and I am so grateful for them both.  I am also thankful for my Mother-in-law, I couldn't have it better in cases of "in-laws".  She has truly taken me in as one of her own and I am so thankful for her for that.  I am also thankful for the rest of my family, sisters, brother, sister-in-law, brother in-law!  We are a close family and I wouldn't have it any other way.  I feel like I could go on and on.
Recently I lost a cousin who died at a rather young age, 46.  He passed away due to a blood clot in his chest.  This was such devastating news to me and our whole family.  All I could think about is the wonderful family, wife and three kids, and EVERYONE else, that he had left behind so suddenly.  No warning, no good-bye, absolutely no closer.  It really got me think about how precious life is and that we all need to live each day like it's our last.  We need to TELL our loved ones we love them and not just assume they already know, we need to make sure that each day we have lived our day so that at the end of it we can look back and smile, instead of being grumpy, angry, jealous, or desperate for need of something else.  Because you just never know when it will be your last.  So ask yourselves this, have I lived my day like its my last?  
I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and was able to enjoy it to the fullest.  I sure hope I can someone slow time down so December doesn't go by so quickly for me!    
  

Adventure Land

So I lied in my post that not much happened in July, I forgot that my mom and dad took us all to Adventureland, minus Curt plus Aunt Connie. We went the week after 4th of July and boy was it fun. I forgot all the things that there is to do for little kids. Bentley had a blast, in fact he threw his first visual fit I've seen him throw when he got of the semi-trucks and wanted to ride them again. In a way it was pretty cute.

Libbie was such a big help with him riding the rides, I was so proud of her. She made sure he was staying safe and having fun. He road the lady bugs, the tea cups, the balloons, there was so much the list just goes on.

He had so much fun he even got tired enough to take a nap in his stroller for over an hour. I was pretty impressed by this because it rarely happens. It was a great day with family and we hope next time that Daddy gets to come along. He had to miss out because he had to work.

Bentley 2012

Here are some pictures I found that I had the idea of posting. These all were around his birthday so they are from awhile ago. Pretty self explanatory enjoy!

Where oh Where has time gone?

It's been a while since I've last posted and boy time flys. I have to say I am not the best at sticking to something and following through. I can't believe it's been since April that I've posted about Bentley, partley because right now there isn't a lot of noticable changes and because I just can't find the time. I am not sure where to begin with this post because now that I look back we have actually done quite a bit.

June

We took our third tirp to flordia, second as a family of three. My parents have been going to florida for about four to five years now and Curt and I joined them in the summer of 2010. Last year Bentley got to go along when he was just 6 weeks old. My sister and her family got to join us as well. This year he was 1 and boy was it a blast. The whole family got to enjoy being in the sun and relaxation. Bentley LOVED the water and couldn't seem to get enough of it. Even when we took him to the beach he just seem to be in aww at the waves coming up to his feet. I thought we'd have some trouble with him wanting to eat the sand when we began to play in it, not hardly! He maybe tried to put it in his mouth once or twice but that was all. I have to say this trip was so awesome, Bentley was amazing in trasitioning from his home to an unfamilir environment. He was great on the plain rides and I just couldn't get over how well he adapted to all the change.







I also started working a different shift at work in June. I went from working 5 days a week to just three nights during the weekend. I now work 6:30 pm to 7:00 am Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. That leaves me home with Bentley Tuesday-Friday. Mondays my sister takes him so I can sleep. At the beginning I thought this would be a perfect time to get him on a regular schedule of activities during the day so that he didn't just play by himself all day. I researched and googled all sorts of things and got exctited to start doing more routine things. This didn't work out well. Let me say I feel very lazy as a mother however Bentley seems quite content playiny by himself. (It's alot of work keeping a house clean, laundry kept up and caring for a child). I am still trying to be active on this, I won't give up.

July

We had a family get together for the 4th of July. Really put things in to perspective on how I've become a pretty laid back parent. I let Bentley freely play in the little kids pool WITH his clothes AND his SHOES on, and I didn't care!!

I was more worried that if I took his shoes off then he might step on a stick or something and get hurt. Bentley also loved the parade. His favorite part...the marching band!!! Grandma Cathi was pretty excited about this when we told her. I could not get over how into the drums he was. Maybe all get my rock star after all. Not much else happened in July, or at least nothing that I'm still remembering after all this time has past. My work schedule has me pretty messed up and I am finding I don't really care about the things I use to care about. All I focus on is spending as much time playing and being with Bentley during the week because come the weekend, I'm lucky if I see him. I am trying to become more devoted on keeping my friends and family update on life but that too is set aside most of the time. So here's to new journeys and goals!!!

Just a Thought

"To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did" When God takes something from your grasp. He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence. "The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."

I received an e-mail the other day that had this in it, along with a cheesy line saying if you send this to 12 people something good will happen to you, yada yada yada. I didn't pay much attention to that part, and no I did not send it to 12 other people, partly because I don't think I even have 12 people in my address book. But I did find these quotes very inspiring. Oh the trust of God, still gets me wondering on a daily basis. To put the trust or think I have the better answers, that is the question. Anything can happen if you just, BELIEVE! Believe he will be there for you when you know now one else will? Believe He will protect you when the decision he makes for you is a bit to scary for you to handle on your own? Believe that he DOES have a plan for you and if you just allow it to happen everything will work out just how he wants it? Trust in someone that has no physical evidence of his being? I'd like to say I'm a believer and that I have put my trust into God and have accepted Jesus Christ as my savior, but I feel I'm reminded on a daily basis how I'm still struggling on trusting him. How I am at the driver wheel peeling full speed ahead and living the life I think is best for me. Sometimes I OFTEN look back and yell "how'd that work out for you" reminding myself that I don't have the answers and that maybe my "choices" that I make in life aren't always the best ones to have made. It is my goal to start trusting in him and believing that I am not in control.

'God our father, watch over me today, take away all my worry and doubt. Sooth my soul and calm my fears. Amen'