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• So what that I haven't written for SWW in like 2 or 3 weeks, I get tired and Wednesday nights seem to be the butt end of my exhaustion.  I'm sorry to my readers that I left you missing out.
• So what that I just "happened" to forget to give Bentley his pacifier tonight.  He was supper tired, went right to bed, didn't even reach for it, so why remind him.  He was sleeping about 15 seconds minutes later.  I'll be anxious to see if he wakes up during the night.  If he doesn't, this may be the end of the binky my friends!!!!  
• So what that I picked up a part time job for fun.  In hind sight I didn't think I was busy enough for me, I wanted to be able to get out more and do things I enjoy.  Working with families and children mark high on that list.  Now that I have it, I feel like I don't have enough time for it all.  Oh well you can't win them all.  Things will eventually work out so I can have an even balance.  
• So what I had to drive to work this morning in this cruddy snow for a work meeting, when last Friday they canceled the meeting before the snow started to even fall!!!  Once again the news prove they can control people.  When they tell you to freak out and get ready for "BIG" snow, everyone does.  But when the "BIG" snow ACTUALLY hits without warning, people carry on like no big deal.  I don't get it.
• So what that I try to keep in touch with my friends as often as I can try.  Even if its not very often, I still want to try to keep something in place so those friendships don't sizzle out and die.  I've lost to many a good friends by not keeping up with things.  I can't afford to loose the ones I have left. 
• So what that my son has begun learning to use object as step stools and now gets into EVERYTHING.  He can reach things that he did not used to be able to and now nothing is safe in our home.  Time to reorganize, AGAIN.
• So what I'm going to be 21....30 in March!!!  It's been a great 30 years, but man that just sounds old!  I'm happy where God has lead me to in life.  I can't complain, I have a great family, wonderful husband, and the best son a mom could ask for.  I have a job that can allow me to get food on the table and shelter to keep me warm in these cold months.  30 years of experience for when my son is old enough to understand.  
• So what that I'm falling asleep and loosing my concentration while I write this post.  I think it's the weather playing tricks on me.  I've just been extra tired lately, NO I'M NOT PREGNANT!! (Just in case anyone planted a seed in their head)

Well that's all for tonight folks.  Hope you have a great day and for my Iowa fans stay warm and drive safe! 

Question 4 - 16 year old Self

Wow, Name 10 things I would tell my 16 year old self!  13 years ago I would have been in 10th grade I believe.

1. No one here (in school, in clubs, on teams, etc.) will matter to you in 10 years so don't sweat them now.  If they don't like you move on.  If you argue with them shrug them off.  You are your own person and life does move forward.  
2. Don't waist your time trying to better yourself for anyone else.  For yourself maybe, but if you are trying to change to impress someone, move on.  Give up on that dream because it's not worth it.  Chances are that one person your trying to change for, won't be around in 5 years anyway. 
3. Study hard and really concentrate on what you are learning in class.  You may not need the knowledge in your career or future but the topics will come up and being able to be apart of that conversation will be worth it.  
4. Learn fashion, maybe not high end fashion, but learn enough so that you don't become comfortable in sweatpants and sweatshirts.  It just hides the you your trying to be and then the lack of caring about what you looks like turns into poor self confidence.  Take pride in your looks and show them off damn it! 
5. Be friends with everyone!  See number one, chances are slim that you will see these people life long so why not be nice and leave imprints.  One day they will be able to look back and have a good memory and that memory just may be about you! 
6. One day you will meet the man of your dreams, don't rush it!  Relax, enjoy life.  Don't spend all your time worrying about one guy or the next.  Let love happen and enjoy it when it does. 
7. Your mom is right, just deal with it!  Accept it and move on.  One day you'll be just like her there's just no getting around it.  DEAL WITH IT! 
8. Make memories now, enjoy life now!  Make books about friends and remember the times you spent with them.  Those times will quickly be replaced with responsibility, children, family, heartache, and stress.  NO matter how hard you try these things will creep up on you and become apart of your daily life.  Embrace the freedom now! 
9. You are great just as you are.  Stay spunky and witty, smile often and laugh.  Don't stress about the "mean girls" and definitely do not  trust that they know anything about you and your life.  They can not give you any advice that's worth anything to you.  Stick with your own advice and listen to what your mother and close friends have to say about you. 
10. You will grown up and do wonderful things with your life!!!!! 

I'd be curious as to what my fellow bloggers would say to themselves at age 16~!!!!!  Come on join with me just for this one question for sure!!  Don't forget to leave me a comment so I can read them! 

Question 3 - Relationship with Parents

My relationship with my parents is very close.  Some might say that we have a secure bond in that its a healthy connection between child and parents.  Some may say that we are too interconnected and entangled into each others lives.  I really don't care what "some people" say honestly.  I feel that we have a good healthy loving relationship.  

Growing up my mother was my best friend.  I told her everything, and I mean EVERYTHING.  Some children might cringe at the idea of the things I would tell my mom but I found that I was comfortable talking to her, sometimes maybe to comfortable.  Like the fact that I could not lie to my mom.  NO matter what I tried, I always ended up telling her the truth because I knew that's what I was suppose to do.  Call it the fear of the mother or just plain open honest communication between a mother and her child.  Sometimes I feel that having this close of a relationship caused many unnecessary arguments or fights, even as a grown adult we often argue about things we do not agree on.  Rather we should embrace the idea that we each have our own thoughts.  I love my mother and she would do anything for me and my sister.  She is our rock and definitely our provider.

My Step dad is pretty much the most amazing person on this planet.  He met my mom when my sister and I were rather young, I was about 5, Angie was 10.  It's hard enough for two people to find each other after both have gone through divorces and children but it's even harder to find someone who will pick up with things left off (so to speak).  Regan accepted us both right from the start, never ask questions and from what I remember without any struggles (for the most part).  He support my sister and I in all that we did and did so like we were his own flesh and blood.  It take a strong person to step in like he did and I really appreciate him for that.  In my eyes, there no step about him, he is in deed my FATHER, my daddy, and will always be.  

With that said, I don't have much to say about my biological father, my sperm donor as I call him.  Never really had a relationship with him that I can remember and haven't really ever wanted one in my adult years.  Probably steamed from the lack of acceptance to my willingness as a child so I just lost interest. 

All in all I love my parents and am very happy with how my life has been and will be.  I do rely on my parents because I know they will take care of me in need.  After all, that's what parents are for.  I just hope that I am able to repay the favor for them some day in just the way they have done for me.  With caring and acceptance!!!