3 Years ago I wrote my last blog. THATS CRAZY
Today I am going to be starting my 100 day challenge to myself. A challenge to begin to make healthier decisions for myself and for my family. I am going to be up front and honest in these post in hope that I can hold myself accountable for my actions.
I currently weight in at 261 lbs. I get out of breath walking to and from my car, upstairs, downstairs, etc. I can barley bend over to tie my own shoes. I have no motivation to be active with my children, I'd rather just sit and watch than get involved and enjoy. We recently got family pictures taken and I was so disgusted with how I felt I looked, I couldn't even enjoy my family for the wonderful joy they are. It's time for a change, and it must start with ME.
I have many fears and reservations about this challenge. I don't want to fail, I have few individuals around me that feel that I can actually follow through. I know that when I become active, walking, bike, etc. my body will begin to hurt and I am fearful of this pain. In the past I have not been able to push through the pain, I let the pain win out. I am fearful that I will continue to be unmotivated and fall through the cracks. I will not get going to follow through with what I want for myself. I fear that I will fail. I will need to change everything about my life style, what I eat, what I do, my time management, how I eat, etc. Can I do this? We will see.
Today is day one, today I am working. Sitting at a desk, thinking about drinking pop and eating junk food. I'm hungry just at the thought of not being able to eat anything I want and that I will have to think about what I am eating before putting it into my mouth. I'm drinking water and I have had one small cup of coffee with a little Pumpkin spice creamer. I did have a muffin for Breakfast in a moment of walking out the door not thinking about the thought that I need to think about what I am eating. For lunch I had some roast beef with potatoes and gravy and a side of green beans, hospital food so you know it has to be healthyish.....right? For a snack I had some tuna salad with some crackers. How much/many you ask....I don't know because I didn't count and I'm trying to just be cautious of what I'm eating, not turn my food into a calorie counting activity. So this is day one, only 99.5 more days to go.
